Days With Mika

An online journal of places, people, and personal growth.

mental-health

  • Centering

    There are times when I dislike myself simply for being me. I can’t help but notice the moments when I don’t know what to say, what to do, or even where to put my hands—as if I’m completely lost in my own mind. Confused. Unsure of who I really am, while at the same time painfully aware that I’m not living the way I should. It’s like something about me always feels wrong. Whenever I’m faced with having to interact with others, I often think: Should I respond the way the person I want to be would respond? Or should… Read more

  • A Little (Maybe a Lot) of Self-Reflection

    There are times when I catch myself drifting between moments of clarity and complete blindness to my own behavior. In some ways, I know I can be incredibly vindictive, and I wish I knew how to change that. But somehow, holding onto resentment—or even entertaining the idea of revenge—often feels far more appealing than acceptance, letting go, and moving on. I know everyone has their flaws, but this feels like something I should’ve grown out of. It’s definitely not something I want to carry into my 30s—still struggling to manage my reactions when others seem to handle theirs more gracefully.… Read more